Tuesday, December 29, 2009

The challenge that is shopping...

How hard should it be to go to a store and find what you want? Well, yesterday was the kind of day I dread. A friend and I were shopping at Leon's and it was just sad that we couldn't get someone to help us. We waited and I contemplated passing out and see if that would help. I do wonder about what is the policy at stores if someone were to just collapse. Does the person just stay on the ground for almost an hour before being found or does something else happen? It could well be beyond sad that I have such thoughts, but I do...

In a similar vein, I wonder what will my date tomorrow bring. Could it be a new friendship? Could it be something more? There are times where I feel I just want to be loved. Is that so much to ask? Maybe it is. I do know that I don't mind having a "human crying machine" title, which is a bit of a mixed thing, really. On the one hand, this does mean that I'm more open about being sensitive and tearing up. At the same time, I'm not sure if I should be doing something to handle this differently. It is kind of like that, "Just be who you are," line that drives me nuts at times.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Personal Development time....

"You 2.0" is a simple read though doing what is asked is where I'm having problems. Figuring out my purpose in life seems like a massive question. Of all the possible uses of my life, which do I want to achieve? My mission for now is to figure out how to take what I like to do and wrap it into why I live the way that I do.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

The frustrations of life...

Ever have those moments where you are doing what was asked but the other person simply isn't living up to their end of the bargain? What do you do to pass the time while you wait for that person? This is what I've been pondering today as sometimes while all one can do is pass the time, there should be other ways to make use of that waiting time. Sometimes I do puzzles or ponder various philosophical points like questioning the purpose of our existence for example.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Stampede and Vacation....

Stampede is on in the city, with it coming the craziness that this town turns into a big party for 10 days. The party can be a nice distraction from the other news in the world that may not be so nice or positive.

As I sit and ponder what to do this week, something will happen but I'm not sure what yet. I know I need to clean up where I live and work on getting a roommate, but there is some reflection going on. I've been where I am now for a year and a lot has changed in a year that I find it surprising that I'm still here in a sense.